perhaps I wasn’t done earlier…. still thinking over the day, and what’s mulling around in my mind and what I don’t want to ‘lose’.
- Is it possible I’m starting to believe I deserve love? This would also mean I’m accepting the belief that I haven’t allowed myself to experience it. (huge concept).
- I felt a bit ‘normal’ today–and then panicked–does that mean the medication is helping? (isn’t that what its Supposed to do?) Why am I afraid of it working? I’m afraid its going to take away an essential part of Me. Of my ‘me-ness’.
- Does it make me sad to think I’m past the point in my life where someone might….
I guess I’m not ready to process All of it yet…..